The anesthetic functioned not only in the courtroom, and not only to allow me to see Hanna as if it was someone else who had loved and desired her, someone I knew well but who wasn`t me.

这种麻醉状态不仅在法庭起了作用，而且还使我看到汉娜好像把我当成另一个爱过并渴望过她的人，一个我很熟悉但却不是我的那么一个人。