There were so many things that you felt inclined to go this way, that you were forced to go that way, that at an early age, you made a conscious decision that if it felt good, it was wrong.

有如此多的事情你想以这种方式行事，然而你却被迫去用那种方式行事，在你年纪小小的时候，你做了一个有意识地决定，如果它感觉好，它就是错的。